still here

Have avoided posting because I became self conscious thinking of other people viewing what I wrote. Seems like most of the blogs I read, the authors are actual writers. Good writers. I actually despise putting my thoughts on paper(or computer) because I don't come across how I perceive myself to be. But fuck it, all this ever was supposed to be was my fun with Lola. I just found myself obsessing over what I should write, like there is a following to this blog:) LOL! I want to vent about how fucked up the world is(wars, ect.), how stupid people are and just bitching in general but I want to keep this as upbeat as possible. Anyway, onto my sweet little girl.

She is all over walking, has been for 4 weeks now. Hells bells, she is awake again, what do I do? I almost always go back to her and nurse her back to sleep or at least till she is almost asleep. Yes I am STILL nursing. She is still such a titmouse. She seemed to cut back around her birthday, but now it seems she has picked it up full force again. She is calling.........