LG's 9 months today!

9 months today:) and :( she is everywhere now its so much harder to contain her. its been a whole week that she has been sleeping in her bed(all NIGHT)!! tonight is a challenge. p had friends over for the sb and she cannot get to sleep. i feel like shit. we've nursed until she doesn't wanna nurse, been up again and again. she had her nighty nite crib toy on. i dont know. she is a fighter. she would almost be asleep then bam! who me sleepy not me lola's not sleepy. and fucking duke wont shut up!!!!!!!!!!!i hate leaving her in her room when she is upset but i run out of solutions and i think she just needs to unwind and let it out. maybe she is sensing my anxiety? i really want to go home but i dont want to screw with her sleeping habits right now. awe---silence--i hope sleep has finally taken over. she is so tired. we had mckinnley here tonight. she is 6. lola LOVES children. when m first got here lola would giggle at anything she would do. she cracks me up!it seems impossible but i love her more and more everyday.

i want to complain about how i feel right now but my life is grand in comparison to those in Pakistan, Iraq and other places of unrest and tragedy. when i feel bad i just think of those poor children in Pakistan who after the earthquake have inadequate shelter and other basic necessities and who cry all night bc they are freezing. can you imagine not being able to provide warmth and nourishment for your baby. what a nightmare. she is crying again and cussing. do i go back in??????????????????? i want to go and take her to bed with me.